01 May 2008

And Now You Know

You should know that somewhere between
Then and now, here and there,
You lost my heart.
You lost me waiting, you lost me wondering
What was going on in that head of yours.
Somewhere between the first time and the last time
You shut me out without giving me a reason
I threw up my hands and walked away
While you had your back turned.
All those little things that worked in the past
To bring me crawling back aren't going to work.
It's over and I'm done, though I doubt you
Will even care, because you'll have someone else.
I'll still feel better for it.
It's about time I got on with my life,
Whether it really crumbles around me like I have
Imagined it would without you or not.
At least this way I can say it fell apart with me
In control instead of struggling along holding on
To you.
I'm cutting off those anchor lines, even if it means
I'md destined to fail.

Roland (David)

I know it is just a waste of time
To wonder what could have been if our
Paths had crossed some other way.
In a way where you weren't the best friend
And I wasn't the unofficially claimed girl.
Doesn't stop the thought from crossing my mind though.
Would the never ending drama be lessened?
Could I still turn to you during late night
Doubts about the state of life?
How different would things be if we
Didn't have to see each other as off limits?
I'd love the chance to get to know you better,
To get past that hard ass sarcastic exterior
And see what it is that sets you off.
You're a fascinating subject to me
And I long for the chance to learn anything
You'd be willing to give up to me.
You are the tall dark figure walking with
A slight swagger through the landscape of my life,
Romantacized, but lacking full dimension.

Another Night

I drive for miles even after the glow
Of the service engine soon light shows.
Ever wonder what it would be like
If the world was flat and you could
Drive straight off the edge?
Probably would never actually do it,
But there would be something full of life
About the knowledge that you could.
It's an interesting thing that there are
So many roads to take you to the same places.
There is comfort in the knowledge that
You don't have to take the same way out
As you went in.
It's the idea that you can make it out
Even if you have burned every bridge
As you passed.
A dead end is just a temporary set back.
And the people that you meet...
Sometimes it's just a matter of passing each other by
But occassionally you crash into each other
Or have to ask directions, but there they are,
A person in your life.

My Daddy

You taught me the importance of knowing
When to lay it all on the line,
You taught me to fight even when
It's a losing fight, because it's a matter
Of right and wrong.
You taught me there's a million ways to say I love you
And many of them go unnoticed.
They mean it just just the same though.
You taught me how to be stubborn,
And how to tune people out, cut them off,
How to lie.
But you also taught me strength, courage,
And to be myself.
You have hard lessons sometimes,
With the help of your old friend Jack,
A bloody lip, unsteady step.
I never thought I'd learn a thing from you,
But I've been learning all along.
Just wish I had paid more attention to the good.

Untitled

I'm just trying to say I love you
In whatever way I can manage.
You think you know already but you
Don't really understand.
You're the only person I want to
Turn to on nights like tonight,
But you don't really want anything to do
With me.
I'm probably a waste of your time,
But you haven't found anything else to
Fill the time so you still keep me around
And I'm thankful for the time you manage
To spare on me.
You don't really mean the things
You say, but it makes me feel better
So I don't really care.

Breaking the Glass

We have a relationship under glass,
That kind of in case of emergency deal.
It seems we only come around when
One of us is in need of something. There's never any
Just because moments anymore.
I think sometimes, a lot of the time,
That the constant hazard status of us
Cannot be good for either one of us.
And I don't want to be a negative in
Your life, but I can't imagine life
Without you around.
Those warning sirens always going off
In m head leave me feeling down
And you always sem to pick up on it.
I just want you happy.